Coping with depression. I never thought that I would experience depression quite like the way I did. After several deaths a bankruptcy and a divorce I found myself at the bottom of the barrel. Literally I remember laying on my bed with a bottle of my favorite alcohol at the time. I will mention the name just because well that’s personal. But the point is that I had hit rock bottom. It sucked. My life sucks. Hearing anyone talk about positive stuff actually sucked as well.
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I despised anyone that I heard talking about positive thinking. I didn’t despise them on a conscious level it was really much more of a subconscious level. When I’d hear about their successes or how all I needed to do was take action or something like that, it just rubbed me the wrong way. They didn’t understand. I was confronted with life in ways that completely sucked all of the wind out of me. I mean I was empty. I had this heavy stone tied around my heart. Every day felt like a rainy day. The worst part about it is that it seem like it was something that wasn’t under my control. I know that there are a lot of people that say change your physiology and change your mindset. But in my case I felt like I was powerless to do so.
Was I powerless? According to the research…no, but according to me… Hell yeah. My life sucked. Anybody in my shoes would’ve been depressed. So what I discovered is that sometimes we need a warming up. In order to handle our depression.
Picture this. You get thrown into a jail cell. All of a sudden your life has change for medically. What are you thinking? You are completely overwhelmed with the situation. It’s not that you can just change it on a whim. First you got to get used to your surroundings. Then, after a little bit of time is past maybe you can get the courage up to break free from the mental chains that you’re in just as much as you’re physically imprisoned.
I personally have never gone to jail but what I mean by all of this is that when you are locked into a depressive moment, I think first you have to acclimate to it before you can really recover from it. I tried the drugs that are supposed to help with depression but I found that they created other problems that made me depressed as well.
So I say all that to say if you find yourself in a depressive moment, the best thing you can do is hold on for the ride until you can get your wits about you. It’s like being stuck on a ship at sea in a storm. Sometimes the best thing you can do is simply hang on until you can figure it out.
Hence the expression hang in there.